Lost................

Its evening, of 16th Sep, 6;45, seems something is missing in me, ...what? Cant recognize, some sort of emptiness is there which is making my heart cry with pain. Oh! Good God, please save me from such a horrible feeling of lonliness. It seems to me as I have lost an important thing of my life, something which was as pivotal as Life itself.

Why so? Whats the matter with me?
Sometimes I feel guilty of this feeling occurring in my heart again and again, but cant do anything, coz I feel so helpless, I feel a sort of pity for myself and dont know what to do then.


Is it so that I am missing my Angel, missing the essence of my life, or is it the feeling of being abondened by someone, someone who once made me an important part of my life. But now he has gone away, so far away, that He will only be there in my memeories, my heart and my SOUL.

Angel (a ray of light in the darkest corner of a room)

Hey all I'm back with loads and tons about "My Angel".......

In my life I have met many people who came into my life, explored, judged and gave their views and finally departed. Many of them found, or may be,always looked for a fault in me.I kept on waiting for a single look, that could see my real self, a look that could see the talent, a look that can give me confidence to soar high, a look with a trust and faith in me. But I spent whole 31 years of my life, searching for that look, for that face, for that " I trust you Deepali, you can do it", attitude, and for "My Angel". Life had turned to be a pathetic one, always waiting for the approvals, for the "yes", but time dragged away all the hopes, all the dreams.

Relations came, used and then abondened, but never cared for the feelings. The days used to be spent in missing, missing "My Dad". Dad, the embodiment of courage, confidence and always "My Hero", use to be a part of my dreams, walking , holding my lil hands, showing me the way, the beautiful world and the ugly faces of its inhabitants. Missing and searching became the pivotal part of my routine, missing dad and searching for that someone, that special,my soul-mate "My Angel".

God, they say, knows when and where everything is to be given. He is the soul provider of the whole mankind. So in my case He was somewhat late.

He came, nurtured, watered, and pampered the "ROSE" of my life.I had never felt that "SPECIAL" as I started feeling, when I used to be with My Angel.The lost confidence, he found, the real self of mine he detected, as if The Almighty has sent him only to for this purpose.Life turned, a steep "U" turn, which changed the pace of life, which brought a healthy glow to the not so fresh flower which could have dried if it had not been taken care of as, few day s back.


Rest next time........
Keep reading "My Angel"......a true story of a true person with a "golden heart"

specially for "MY ANGEL"

When I have no one to turn to
And I am feeling kind of low,
When there is no one to talk to
And nowhere I want to go,
I search deep within myself
It is the love inside my heart
That lets me know my Angel is there
Even though we are miles apart.

A smile then appears upon my face
And the sun begins to shine.
I hear a voice, so soft and sweet
Saying, 'Everything will be just fine'
It may seem that I am alone
But I am never by myself at all.
Whenever I need my Angel near
All I have to do is call.

An Angel's love is always true
On that you can depend.
He will always stand behind you
And will always be your friend.
Through darkest hours and brightest days
My Angel's see me through
He smile when I am happy, and will cry when we are blue..

Thanks for being my Angel my friend
I will be there for you until the end.

My Angel And Friend

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.

Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.

You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.

It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.

Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!

So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

for my ANGEL only.......

My Angel, is "Thandi Hawa ka jhonka", cool breeze when the sun shines at its best,.....
My Angel

I am blessed with the love of an angel,
who's smile is brighter than the sun,
with eyes that sparkle more than any star,
whose kiss is sweeter than the finest of wines
and love more powerful than any drug,
no dream could ever compare to my angel's presents,
nor replace the tenderness of his precious kiss,
for me my angel is a dream come true,
and my love for him will last until the end of time,
I will always worship the times we have
and hold dear to my heart the linger of his last touch;
until we meet again,
each night I will look at the moon and say
I love you too my angel, and be thankful for my dream come true!

Back again

Hi, I am back again, with something more about "MY ANGEL".
THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO SEEM TO SPECIALIZE IN CARING FOR OTHERS, "MY ANGEL" IS ONE OF THOSE.

Story of "MY ANGEL............"

One of the routine days of my life, busy, hectic and loveless. Was just going through my mails when suddenly happened to come across a mail from a close friend of mine. Some invitation to join "ORKUT" was there.I just ignored and started checking my another mails. But something send me back to that mail. Just to pass he time or we can say Destiny made me create a profile for myself on "ORKUT".

Amonth or two gone when suddenly I saw a scrap in my scrapbook.It was 7th of October.Although there was no special message but yes, there were some "special vibes" that came from the face that accompanid the scrap.
There was something which I never felt while reading any oher scrap or visiting anyone's profile.I went into another world where it seemed that I know this person from a long time.
I just quickly brought myself back to the present world.Next day my hands felt helpless while sending a friend requet to that "ANGELIC FACE", which according to me was someone from previous birth.

Angel

When I was small, I used to hear about ANGELS from my 'mom'. But never used to know that one day I will find one........really seems like GOD has been happy with me .Thats the reason I came to know my Angel.....


Have u ever met an ANGEL?.....
I have....and I am happy that he came into my life wen I was alone and my life was loveless.

Thankyou Oh LOrd!........for being sooooo kind to me.

"Our soul mate is the one who makes life come to life."

There is no doubt that somewhere, possibly in the deepest recesses of our heart, we are all looking for a person who will make us feel complete. It could be your spouse, parent, sibling, friend, guru, boss or even your pet dog. In my case its my BEST FRIEND....MY ANGEL....

for him......

I just wanted... no, had to tell him how much he means to me. I don't know what I would do without a great friend like him. He is the number one best buddy I have ever had. Without him my pathetic life would not be worth living. I would climb the highest mountain, swim the deepest sea, walk across the hottest desert just to tell him how incredibly special your friendship is to me.

Something more..........

There is much to talk about him, but I am getting short of words. All say that being a masters in language I excel in my field but whenever it comes to talk about my BEST FRIEND my ANGEL, all my words are lost in air.

Anyways, ....Since my childhood, I had been just giving and giving to all my relations, without expecting something in return and never getting anything from them.
I used to think that this has become my destiny. "Deepali is here in this world only to give, nothing to receive."

But it was only till I met MY ANGEL. He showed me what ANGELS are made of. And from him I received,'everything' that I never dreamt of, never got from anyone, not even from the people who brought me up, my parents. He became the calm listener . Deepali got someone to talk to, someone to whom she could open up her heart, her feelings, her emotions, someone with whom she could talk to for hours, someone with whom she could cry to her hearts content and who could always provide his shoulder for her tired head and crying soul;someone to WIPE AWAY HER TEARS.

He taught me to love life and love myself.He was my confidence and the one who showed confidence in me and my ability. Once again life started blooming.

The love and respect that I have for him is purely spritual. Dont know how to put it in words but will only say this much that if there are two people in front of me, 'GOD Himself'and 'My Angel', without any hesitation and second thought I would definitely kneel down in front of 'My Angel and bow my head. Coz he is my GOD, God in the form of My friend, my Angel.

I have never seen GOD, but I have heard about HIM, and whatever I have heard about him I have found all those things in My Angel, so he is my GOD.

My Best Friend

Here I am to share something about my best friend who is a gem of a person.What to write here.......about My best friend...hmmmm...dont have any words to describe him. Angel....this is what I call him,...ANGEL in the real sense, but ofcourse without wings, but I even can feel them ,....sometimes fluttering in my ear when I am all alone in the shadows of despair...just to tell me and assure me that he is around....like a shield....to protect..to love...and to nurture.

Life....he is the one who taught me...the real meaning of life....the real meaning of LOVE...he taught me to "LOVE MYSELF"......I have to write too much but time is short,.....so will continue.....its not the end....just the beginning.....so keep on waiting....I will be back soon with so much more about ..."MY BEST FRIEND"...."MY ANGEL" .......Till then.....ADIEU..