MY PAINFUL LOVE

Why does it have to hurt inside?
Why do I have to cry each night?
I think I have to walk on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep inside

But although I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts inside...

Just a thought....

If instead of a gem, or even a flower, we should cast the gift of a loving thought into the heart of a friend, that would be giving as the angels give.

Lost................

Its evening, of 16th Sep, 6;45, seems something is missing in me, ...what? Cant recognize, some sort of emptiness is there which is making my heart cry with pain. Oh! Good God, please save me from such a horrible feeling of lonliness. It seems to me as I have lost an important thing of my life, something which was as pivotal as Life itself.

Why so? Whats the matter with me?
Sometimes I feel guilty of this feeling occurring in my heart again and again, but cant do anything, coz I feel so helpless, I feel a sort of pity for myself and dont know what to do then.


Is it so that I am missing my Angel, missing the essence of my life, or is it the feeling of being abondened by someone, someone who once made me an important part of my life. But now he has gone away, so far away, that He will only be there in my memeories, my heart and my SOUL.

Angel (a ray of light in the darkest corner of a room)

Hey all I'm back with loads and tons about "My Angel".......

In my life I have met many people who came into my life, explored, judged and gave their views and finally departed. Many of them found, or may be,always looked for a fault in me.I kept on waiting for a single look, that could see my real self, a look that could see the talent, a look that can give me confidence to soar high, a look with a trust and faith in me. But I spent whole 31 years of my life, searching for that look, for that face, for that " I trust you Deepali, you can do it", attitude, and for "My Angel". Life had turned to be a pathetic one, always waiting for the approvals, for the "yes", but time dragged away all the hopes, all the dreams.

Relations came, used and then abondened, but never cared for the feelings. The days used to be spent in missing, missing "My Dad". Dad, the embodiment of courage, confidence and always "My Hero", use to be a part of my dreams, walking , holding my lil hands, showing me the way, the beautiful world and the ugly faces of its inhabitants. Missing and searching became the pivotal part of my routine, missing dad and searching for that someone, that special,my soul-mate "My Angel".

God, they say, knows when and where everything is to be given. He is the soul provider of the whole mankind. So in my case He was somewhat late.

He came, nurtured, watered, and pampered the "ROSE" of my life.I had never felt that "SPECIAL" as I started feeling, when I used to be with My Angel.The lost confidence, he found, the real self of mine he detected, as if The Almighty has sent him only to for this purpose.Life turned, a steep "U" turn, which changed the pace of life, which brought a healthy glow to the not so fresh flower which could have dried if it had not been taken care of as, few day s back.


Rest next time........
Keep reading "My Angel"......a true story of a true person with a "golden heart"

specially for "MY ANGEL"

When I have no one to turn to
And I am feeling kind of low,
When there is no one to talk to
And nowhere I want to go,
I search deep within myself
It is the love inside my heart
That lets me know my Angel is there
Even though we are miles apart.

A smile then appears upon my face
And the sun begins to shine.
I hear a voice, so soft and sweet
Saying, 'Everything will be just fine'
It may seem that I am alone
But I am never by myself at all.
Whenever I need my Angel near
All I have to do is call.

An Angel's love is always true
On that you can depend.
He will always stand behind you
And will always be your friend.
Through darkest hours and brightest days
My Angel's see me through
He smile when I am happy, and will cry when we are blue..

Thanks for being my Angel my friend
I will be there for you until the end.

My Angel And Friend

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.

Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.

You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.

It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.

Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!

So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

for my ANGEL only.......

My Angel, is "Thandi Hawa ka jhonka", cool breeze when the sun shines at its best,.....
My Angel

I am blessed with the love of an angel,
who's smile is brighter than the sun,
with eyes that sparkle more than any star,
whose kiss is sweeter than the finest of wines
and love more powerful than any drug,
no dream could ever compare to my angel's presents,
nor replace the tenderness of his precious kiss,
for me my angel is a dream come true,
and my love for him will last until the end of time,
I will always worship the times we have
and hold dear to my heart the linger of his last touch;
until we meet again,
each night I will look at the moon and say
I love you too my angel, and be thankful for my dream come true!